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3:03 again. The lighted numbers of my clock glared at me in the darkeness. Why 3:03? I wonder. It's the same time it has been previous nights when I wake from my slumber to find those same offensive numbers staring me down. I am doomed to lie there in wait. I could have gotten up but that would mean having to leave the warm caccoon of my bed and lets face it I hate being cold, especially in the early hours of morning. So there I laid for almost 3 hours, finally drifting off just as the rumble from the shower that shares a wall with my bedroom roars to life signaling my niece rushing to get ready for school and as it usually is the next hour of sleep is my most restful, interupted as it often is by my alarm going off every 9 minutes and me waking only long enough to hit the snooze button.



And it's not like my day was a lazy one...watching two 21 month old boys never makes for a lazy day, especially now that they are into everything. I ran the kids ragged in the yard today in hopes they would take a longer nap...but of course that hadn't worked just served as making me more tired.



I generally don't go to bed early either. By the time the shows I watch are over and I have jumped into the shower it's about 11:30-midnight and I have been tending to fall asleep as soon as my head hits the pillow. Until something jerks me from sleep and I find myself turning to the only light source in my room other then the red dot glowing from my Wii.



Counting sheep sure as hell hasn't helped me any and I could ask for some sleeping pills but I hate the feeling I wake with while taking them.



*sigh*

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ravenairsprite
07:56 Apr 04 2010

Try Herbal tea

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Let's start with the good news...Brad should be leaving where he is in the Middle East in about 15 days...give or take a day or two before he is stateside again. Of course once he is back on American soil there is the two weeks of debriefing and whatever other stuff before he finally gets to fly home.



...myself? I have been feeling really down and out lately. The lingering pain I have been having seems to be disapaiting which is a good thing...though maybe I should still go to the doctors. I am still feeling really exhausted and just not up to a lot right now. And the restless nights just really are not helping. Maybe I need to paint my ceiling or hang something up there because staring at it for hours at a time at night is just not fun



I am looking forward to the next week when my niece is gone... :) she is going home to visit her parents and siblings. The house always feels different when she is gone, less stress for sure

So I finally got the final estimate on getting my laptop fixed...$512 ouch. I was like hell no...I'll buy a new one



For one it's more than the laptop is worth in value although I love that laptop. I am talking my parents into letting me put a new laptop on their dell account even though I hate dells with a passion, have had bad history with them, but since I won't be able to buy another one outright again I have to do something.



So until I can talk them into letting me do that I am stuck using my phone or begging to use my mom's laptop that is ancient. But it's better than nothing I guess. URGH!!!